“Some people don't understand the promises they're making when they make them...Right, of course. But you keep the promise anyway. That's what love is. Love is keeping the promise anyway.” 
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

“Words can be twisted into any shape. Promises can be made to lull the heart and seduce the soul. In the final analysis, words mean nothing. They are labels we give things in an effort to wrap our puny little brains around their underlying natures, when ninety-nine percent of the time the totality of the reality is an entirely different beast. The wisest man is the silent one. Examine his actions. Judge him by them.” 
― Karen Marie Moning

“It was not despair, but it seemed to her as if life were passing by, leaving its promises broken and unfulfilled. Yet there were other days when she listened, was led on and deceived by fresh promises which her youth had held out to her.” 
― Kate Chopin, The Awakening

“Broken vows are like broken mirrors. They leave those who held to them bleeding and staring at fractured images of themselves.” 
― Richard Paul Evans, Promise Me

“There was plenty of life left and if he had to he would use it all to get her back. The time had passed for making promises to her-all that was left for him was to act.” 
― Anna Godbersen, Envy

“Honesty is all I've got," she said finally, speaking in a low voice. "I don't have family. I don't have beauty, or a man. I don't have money, and I sure as hell don't have a future. All I've got to prop up my pride is my word." Her chin rose. "When Jenny Jones says something, you can bet your last peso that it's true.” 
― Maggie Osborne, The Promise of Jenny Jones

“If you want to know if someone was meant to be in your future, then remove all the worldly things about them from your mind. Don’t think about their looks, the intimate moments or their personality. Now, think about how they made you feel, how they improved your life and what virtues they possess that push you to want to become better. Did they bring you closer to God? Did they bring you to your life mission? Did they ever lie to you, betray you or made it impossible for you to feel comfortable speaking your mind? When you remove all the shine from a diamond, it becomes a glass rock. What value is it then? See beneath the surface and you will know who your future is with.” 
―  Shannon L. Alder

“When you adapt to someone, they become a part of your routine, a part of you. And when they’re taken away, you feel a bit lost. No matter how much you think it won’t affect your life, it does.” 
-E.L. Montes, Perfectly Damaged 

Its been awhile....

So much has happened since my last post, Ive probably lost any or all of those who viewed my page regularly. But now working graveyard I can pick back up on the things that ive been lacking.  

Short but sweet, Im single again.... you can read my dating journal here:

www.findingmrforever.wordpress.com 

and the origional one at http://lookingforhappilyeverafter.blogspot.com/ 

Still working on the transition, and the updates on that =)

Now back to our regularly scheduled program...

would the seven-year-old you be proud of who you are today?

I just want to feel safe with someone, 

to not always be wondering how he feels about me, 

to not always be waiting for him to walk away, 

to not always be wishing he would love me back. 

I need to be able to trust that a man is there for me for 

the right reasons, because he cares enough to be there

Never forget what a man says to you when he is angry

If all those words you said actually meant something, 

maybe we wouldn't be standing where we are today.

Don't let him have the satisfaction of knowing you'll always be there waiting.

If he doesn't chase you, 

after you walk away,

keep walking.

Don't do something permanently stupid just because you are temporarily upset

You are worth everything, everything and anything. 

Don’t ever let anyone else tell you anything different. 

YOU ARE ENOUGH.

if you want what you've never had, 

you have to do what you've never done.

There is a big difference in what we long for, 

what we settle for, and what we are meant for.

One girl. One smile. One moment. One life. One dream. One wish.

The only people who ever get anyplace interesting are the
people who get lost.
-Thoreau 

Keep on dreaming, even if it breaks your heart

She is clothed in dignity and strength and she

 laughs without fear of the future.
-Proverbs 31:25

There are people who used to be in my life that aren't
anymore and I wish I could tell them, they meant something
to me, even if I meant nothing to them

Character is how you treat those who can do nothing for you

 Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never
tires, and a touch that never hurts.
-Charles Dickens

Be strong enough to stand alone, smart enough to know when
you need help, and brave enough to ask for it

 When you're forced to stand alone, you realize what you've got in you.

If you wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done.
-ECC 11:4

If you have no will to change it, you have no right to criticize it

The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others on how you
demand to be treated. Don't settle for anything other than respect.

There are 3 C's in life. Choice, chance, change. You much make the choice
to take a chance if you want anything to change

This is a touch subject, you dont have to read. You can close the screen or change sites with a click of a mouse. But its time to face the facts. This is NOT ok. 

I am a survivor of sexual assult

STATS: 1 in 5 survive 

22 million women in the U.S. have been raped in their lifetime. 

63.84% of women who reported being raped, physically assaulted, and/or stalked since the age of 18 were victimized by a current or former husband, cohabiting partner, boyfriend, or date.

Only 16-38% of rape victims report to law enforcement, and only 17-43% present for medical evaluation after rape. 

25,000 and 32,000 pregnancies every year come from sexual assult in the united states...

"There is a poisonous double standard in our society which says that its reverse-sexist and wrong for women to feel threatened by creepy-awkward male behavior because our fear implies that we hold the negative, stereotypical view that all men are predators, but that if we're raped or sexually assaulted by any man with whom we've had prior social interaction- and particularly if hes expressed some sexual or romantic interest in us during that time, its reasonable for observers to ask what precautions we took to prevent the assault from happening. Or to suggest that we maybe let the guy on by not stating our feelings plainly. The result is a situation where women are punished if we reject, avoid, or identify creepy men, and then told its our fault if were assaulted by someone we plainly out to have rejected, avoided, identified"

  "National Crime Victimization Survey in 2010 indicates that over 2/3 of all rapes are committed by someone who is known to the victim - someone who is not a stranger. Of female rape or sexual assault victims in 2010, 25% were assaulted by a stranger, 48% were by friends or acquaintances, and 17% were intimate partners. Another research study performed the same year by the National Crime Victimization Survey indicates that during a one-year period, 3.4 million people ages 18 or older in the United States were stalked. Only 9.7% of the stalkers were strangers to the victims. Intimate partner stalkers used more insults, interfering, threats, violence, and weapons than any other type of stalker and 76% of intimate partner femicide (homicide of women) victims were stalked by their intimate partner in the year prior to the femicide. So, again, I ask, when exactly is a victim of rape supposed to KNOW that she is going to be raped or killed, allowing them to defend themselves?"

For the days ahead;

• Suppression: One of your instincts will be to suppress the memories, ignore the fact of what happened. It’s allowed. There is no right or wrong way to feel better, but if ignoring it helps you cope - it’s a start. As long as you know this will come back, it’s ok to put it away for a week or two. It is not the healthiest thing, to put away all your emotions like this but if you actively suppress the memories, you’re actively working on coping. And…it’s a start. But it’ll come back and that is something you need to know. Everyone will not recommend this method, but I know how it works…and it’s going to be your first instinct. And you will probably do it, whether you are aware of it or not. 

• Seek Outside Help: You are feeling alone, and you’re feeling down. You need to talk, but fear what friends or family will say or think of you. Perhaps the easiest way to talk about it, for some people, is to bring it to a stranger. If they say something you don’t like, you can always walk away and forget them. www.fcasv.org (or 1-888-956-7273, if you are in the US) is a helpful resource that will help you find a rape crisis program. These programs will find you counseling and other resources. If you have a trusted counselor who already knows you, perhaps they can assist you as well.

• Find a support group. Much like AA, there are groups that are lead by a licensed counselor dedicated to bringing together survivors to discuss coping techniques, and life after their attack. 

• Realizations: These are things multiple people will tell you, and they’re true. This was not your fault. It is ok to feel upset, sad, angry. It is ok to cry. It is ok to hit things in rage. It is ok to let yourself have feelings when it comes your attack. Do not compare your assault to another persons. If you think your assault is any less significant then someone else’s assault, you are wrong. Never tell yourself you don’t have the “right” to be this upset - what you went through is very real, and you cannot erase your experiences. 

• Community: You are not alone. Google will you help you find many online communities dedicated to helping you. There are cha trooms and other online safe spaces. Tumblr has many survivors who are open about their experiences and willing to help those in need. Perhaps you can confide in them - as someone who has gone through this experience, they can tell you how they began to cope and see if it works for you. Facebook is also home to Grrrlvirus, which is open to female-identified people, which has many people who speak out.

• Find a “mantra”: A mantra is a statement that you repeat over and over again. When I start having a panic attack after being triggered, I repeat the same statement over again. I use it to “bring myself back” to reality, to affirm that I am safe. I’ve gone through a few mantras in my process of healing - starting with “It’s not my fault.” “I am ok.” “I am safe.” 

• Channeling your emotions: Sometimes your emotions are too much to handle, and then you need to let them out. Talking is one way, but sometimes you can’t begin to vocalize how you feel. Scream. Cry. Write it out - poetry, blog posts, diaries, journaling, etc. Create artwork - paint splatters, collages, etc. Fight it out - (although I don’t recommend attacking people…) take classes at the gym that force you to use a lot of energy, get a punching bag (or use a pillow). Find small stress relievers (I like to rip things up…that’s a little strange, I’m sorry).
• FIND SOMETHING THAT REMINDS YOU THAT YOU ARE IN CONTROL.
• Begin Confiding: If there is one person you trust more than anyone, they can be the first person you choose to confide in. Over time, you will share your experience with others and this is a healing process. 
• Partners/Relationships: If you are in a relationship when this occurs, or when you feel triggered - you need to let your partner know about certain things. What can they do to make you feel better? What should they avoid doing around you? And listen, it’s ok to put the relationship on hold. You have to come first. 
• “Feeling Dirty”: I recently read about this and it may help someone who is fact driven. It’s common for survivors to feel “dirty” or unclean. Again, it’s allowed. Your body was violated against your will and you don’t know how to fix it. The top layer of your skin sheds about every 4 weeks, meaning that in 4 weeks your skin has not been touched by your attacker. If you feel yourself panicking or feeling unclean, sit own and calculate how many weeks have passed. Your skin, it’s new layer, has never been touched by your attacker. 
• If you are worried about triggers, find situations to avoid them until you think you are prepared:  Airports are triggering. Any movie rated R will potentially have something triggering. Dramatic TV shows (looking @ you Grey’s Anatomy) will eventually introduce a triggering plot. 
• If you feel the need to take precautions, do so. There are products that are concealed weapons, which you can carry on you when you leave your home. Invest in tougher locks on your doors and check them when you feel unsafe. Carry your keys in your hand, with the keys going in between your fingers. Wear thick, heavy rings. Buy thicker curtains. Take a self defense class. If any of this helps you feel safer or in control - then by all means, do so. You are not being paranoid - you are adapting to your new situation as a survivor. Over time, you may relax with these precautions but remember that you are in control of when and how you do this.
• Leave town for a few days. Stay with family. Get away from the city or neighborhood where your assault occurred. It’s a mental health vacation - you need to get away from the negative memories at first.
• Take a day to yourself. Stay in for the day. Sleep in, read a good book, eat all the fast food you want, take bubble bath, stay in your safe space. This is not a long term solution, but it helps if you are feel particularly down.
• If you fear loneliness, seek out company. There is no reason to punish yourself by isolating yourself. If you feel the need to see people, it’s allowed. Call the people you trust the most, or, if you struggle to build trust, hang out with acquaintances in very public, open spaces. 
• I don’t know if this works for everyone, but I found that cleaning my apartment (throwing out a LOT of things that cluttered it up). Actually throwing things out made me feel really good. So cleaning. Or redecorating. 
• Recreate your safe space.If your room, or your apartment, is where you feel the safest - feel free to redecorate it in a way that makes it feel like a completely new space. One where you can “start over”.  This can be hanging up new posters, changing the sheets…anything. 
•  Invest some time in DIY projects. Or learning new skills. I know this sounds lame and useless, but by creating productivity I found that it helped “bring me back to reality” somewhat. 
• Read. I found that taking an activist approach helped me cope…but this was a very long time after my attack. Zines and feminist literature address how we live in a rape culture. They helped me cope because I just like facts and figures, some sort of structure. 
• Go to the police if you think it will help you cope.. There are cops who have special training when it comes to sexual assault survivors. 

   www.slutwalkseattle.com

Its been forever since I've posted. Ive got my own place, and Michael has been home and gone again since I've written last. I've forgotten how important this was to my sanity. =] 

This post is pretty much my life in the past 6 months combined. 

Even if they are an ass, retain your class


Time reveals character,
and some people just don't age well.


If a man can't stick to something as simple
as his word, imagine what else he can't stick to


Before you diagnose yourself with
depression, or low self esteem; 
first make sure that you are not, in fact
just surrounded by assholes.
-William Gibson


If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you. 


It takes nothing to join the crowd.
It takes everything to stand alone.
-Hans F. Hansen


When we strive to become better than we are,
everything around us becomes better too
-Paulo Coelho


Loose the argument, not the person.


Don't jump to a conclusion with nothing to land on. 


Live life through a wind shield, not the rear-view mirror.


It's not the future your afraid of;
It's the past repeating itself that makes you anxious.


The only people who ever get anyplace interesting,
are the people who get lost
-Thoreau

Every sunset brings peace, every sunrise brings hope.


Keep on dreaming, even if it breaks your heart. 

I'm not only putting on my big girl panties, 
I'm putting on my bitch bra, my shit kicker boots,
 and my spiked leather belt with the boy toy belt buckle. 
So don't tell me to, "deal with it." Cuz honey, I got this shit covered. 

Life doesn't give you the people you want, it gives you the people you need:

to love you, to hate you, to make you, to break you,

and to make you the person you were meant to be.

You have two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist,

or accept the responsibility for changing them

Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something,

loves something, and has lost something.

If you love me, say it. If you trust me, do it.

If you want me, show it. If you need me, prove it.

You get in the biggest fights with the people you care about the most.

Because those are the relationships worth fighting for.

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned

 so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

The happiest people don't have the best of everything,

they just make the best of everything.

Things will get worse before they get better.

But when they do, remember who put you down, and who helped you up.

This picture is true to how I've been feeling lately, a couple of people have resurfaced in my life and I feel like their trying to take me away from Michael... trying to make me believe that he doesnt care, doesnt love me, is with someone else, lying to me about this or that....

She was taught to believe in what she saw.

But what she saw didn't give her much to believe in.

When your ex says, "You will never find anyone like me."

You reply, "That's the point.

The karma of fucking over a good girl, is the
trashy bitch you end up with. =]

 

i know you messed up, but i was willing to forgive you because that's how happy you made me. but you gave up, you didn't fight for me. you backed out when one thing went wrong, and thats what hurts the most. you seen me and looked right through me, i was invisible. And now, all i have to say is i'm so over ya babe

So, now you love me? That's cute, adorable in fact. Considering you let me go. You pushed me away, and I'm not idiot. I took the hint and got over you. So you love me? Bullshit. You came to that conclusion too late

You used me because you knew I'd always be there. But I guess your plan backfired because now I'm no where to be found.

Don't let him get to you, he only wants to see you broken

You might feel worthless to one person, but you are priceless to another.

 Don't ever forget your value

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It's not like you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. They come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, and you do

We make our relationship the way we want it to be. We could make it so there are regrets an second thoughts, we could forgive but not forget, or not forgive at all. We can be selfish or we could compromise. We can agree or disagree. We could cry or smile. We could make up or break up. But at the end of the day, everyone just wants to be happy. So we do what we could to keep it that way, even if it means sacrificing a little,because you know they'd do the same. I've done what I could, so now let's see what you're capable of.

*Now her. She's a different story. Her heart is currently broken. Watch her, in all her glory. Her smile is fake and it's well spoken, she cries more than needed and those tears on her cheek are proof that she's never exceeded. But according to every guy, she's a charm and yet she still sits there smiling regardless of all the fake friends and the dreams that were broken.

*Yeah, I do talk to other guys, I laugh with other guys,

 and I hug other guys.

But don't you doubt for a second that any of

 them mean as much to me as you.***

*Silence is a girl's loudest cry.

You will always know she's deeply hurt if she's ignoring you

*I was just another promise that you couldn't keep. 

*I want you to look at me like i have something other girls don't.

*I'm not upset because our relationship is dying.

I'm upset because you're not doing anything to save it.

*Be careful what you say to someone today.

 Because tomorrow they may not be here. And you can't take it back.

*I just want someone who means what they say. To promise me and mean it.

To prove me wrong; that not all things end. That not all promises are broken.

 I want to hear a promise I can believe in.

*Sometimes it's easier to pretend you don't care,

than to admit that it's killing you

*If it's meant to happen, you'll stick with it until it does.

And if it's not mean to happen you'll eventually give up.

And i"m telling you this because I want to let you know,

I'm NOT giving up on you anytime soon.

Dear Deployment, you have no idea how much I hate your guts right now. I feel like I'm loosing him...

Distance is just a test to see how far love can travel.

Stability was overrated. Crisis and adventures, on the other hand,

could actually teach you something

You know you're in love when the hardest thing to say is goodbye

Dear life, when I said, "Can my day get any worse?"

 it was a rhetorical question not a challenge

And this feeling, right here, is the exact reason

why I never gave up on you when everyone else said stop trying

She's banged up, mentally and emotionally, literally and metaphorically,

 but everyday she walks outside with a smile on her face

 because that's who she is.

Let go of what kills you and hold

onto what keeps you breathing.

You can fake your smiles and laughter, but you can

never fake your tears and feelings

And I guess you're proof that when you finally

 let go of the past, something better comes along

Dear girl, don't mess this one up.

I think he is the one. Love, your heart.

Sometimes the harder you fall, the stronger you rise.

I’m a survivor, I survive; it’s what I do best.

Your first mistake, leaving me. Your second mistake,

was allowing me to realize I can live without you

It hurts when something good ends,

but it hurts even more if you cling to it,

knowing that's it's not there.

-Wiz Khalifa

Worthless. Ugly. Liar. Bitch. Trashy. Skanky. Selfish. I believed all your lies because you were so insecure as to put down a child. Important. Beautiful. Trustworthy. Kind. Respected. Self-respected. Selfless. This is who I am. I am not your insecurities. I will not be defined by your hatred. I am defined by me

I just want someone who means what they say. To promise me & mean it. To prove me wrong; that not all things end. That not all promises are broken. I want to hear a promise I can believe in.

Forget what hurt you in the past.

But never forget what it taught you.

Nothing that's worthwhile is ever easy. Remember that.

-Nicholas Sparks

Fate determines who enters your life,

your actions decide who stays.

At any moment you have the power to say:

this is not how the story is going to end

Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.

If we forgive others, we free our minds

 to dwell on better and brighter things.

And we free our hearts to feel the love we're made

 to instead of the rage we create

ALL GAVE SOME . . . SOME GAVE ALL

In the midst of all the rubble, a cross was found.

Out of two of the beams from the world trade center

The view of the 9/11 attacks from space



The two largest man made water falls were constructed

where both of the towers stood

LIFE A LIFE
WORTHY OF THEIR SACRIFICE

Never compare your love story with those in the movies because they are written by scriptwriters. Yours is written by God.

Being a real man doesn't mean you sleep with 100 girls. it means you fight for one girl even when 99 others are chasing you.

There's no doubt in my mind that i am in love with you. Everything about you makes me smile. when you hold my hand, i never want to let go. When you're sad, I would do anything in my power to make it better. You mean so much to me that it hurts. I would give anything to be with you every second of every day.

He's annoying, he's hilarious, he's the worlds biggest asshole, he makes me want to scream, he ruins my day and saves it at the last minute, he drives me crazy, he's out of his mind, I hate his guts, and he's everything I could ever ask for!

No man is truly married until he understands every word that his wife isn't saying

Once you lose yourself you have two choices; find the person you used to be or lose that person completely.

When a girl says, "I'm done," it really means "Fight for me."

Silence is a girl's loudest cry. You will always know she's deeply hurt if she's ignoring you.

Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something.

Throughout my life, i have always been afraid of losing the people i love, but then, sometimes I wonder is there anyone out there afraid of losing me?

If you love me, say it. If you trust me, do it. If you want me, show it. If you need me, prove it.

Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together, when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.

We may not have it all together but together we have it all.

He's the kind of guy that makes you love your name,

just because of the way he says it.

And I adore the fact that someone like you

sees something in someone like me.

You know it's an important thing, saying I love you

to the people that matter because you never

 know when you'll lose them or when they'll lose you.

-One Tree Hill

If someone wants to be a part of your life,

they'll make an effort to be in it.

Don't bother reserving a space in your heart for

 someone who doesn't make an effort to stay.

I'm going to marry you someday.

 So please plan your life accordingly

If he takes time to argue with you,

he cares about you more than you think.

 

 "...what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise..."

Things have been such a beautiful disaster lately. I'm trying to spend as much time as possible with my honey before he deploys, ill post again soon =]

A couple texts my honey sent me earlier tonight: 

" You make everything perfect in this crazy world."

"You make me a better man, but whats more is you make me WANT to be a better man."

 ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

A tad of our conversation that made me laugh like crazy.

Him: "No one in the World could make me happier not even Katy Perry" LMAO 

Me: " Awe baby, that means a lot, I didn't think I could compete with her"

Him:  "Baby. She's got a voice of an angel, but you've got my heart." <3

(to those who don't know my honey really really likes Katy Perry that's what made it even more special for him to say something like that to me.)

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

&&&&& some quotes:

Someday someone is going to look at you with a light in their eyes you’ve never seen, they’ll look at you like you’re everything they’ve been looking for their entire lives.  Wait for it.

They were in love.
You could tell just by the way they looked at each other,
like they had the most wonderful secret
in the world between them.

He's like nobody else in the world. When I'm with him, it's like I'm split in half.
Part of me is on fire, going crazy if I'm not touching him. The other half is
calm and peaceful just perfectly content, knowing he is the one for me

Long distance is hard. You have to trust that
as you each change on your own, your relationship
will also change along with you. It takes hope,
good humor, and idealism. It takes a massive dose
of courage to protect the relationship at all odds.
It is hard, but worth it. You’ll both be stronger as a result.

You don’t always have to kiss a lot of frogs 

to recognize a prince when you find one.

Love is when you tell someone something bad about yourself and
you're scared they won't love you anymore. But then you get surprised
because not only do they still love you, they love you even more.

Hold people like it’s the last time you’ll ever see them. And when they go,
don’t make reasons for them to stay. Instead make reasons for them to return.

To love someone is a very special thing , 

but for that someone to love you back is more of a miracle. 

If you happen to stumble upon such a miracle, make sure you realize it.
Never take it for granted, never throw it away, 

never let it sit, and most of all never let it die

Love is patient, love is kind. 

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, 

it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
(1 Corinthians 13:4-7)

She's never been one to wait around. 

She's always moving and dancing and running.
But for some reason, with him, she's patient.
She'll wait. She'll wait for nobody,
and nothing else, except him.

I’m scared and i don't say that often, but i can't stand the fact that you could hurt me. i don't like being close, but i love it. you're my everything and i hate it because you have everything you need to break me. and i'm not saying you will, but I'm scared

Sometimes I still stare at you,
amazed and absolutely enchanted.
And even though I've held
your gaze a thousand times,
when you turn to me and
give me that silly grin of yours,
you still make me blush

In a relationship, the guy moves around a lot. 

He stands in front of the girl so when things get tough,
she can run into his arms and be comforted. 

He stands behind her so when she thinks 

she can't handle anymore and falls, 

he's there to catch her and reassure her she can do anything.

Most importantly, he stands beside her,

so when she's ready to take on the world,

he's there to hold her hand 

and take it on with her!

 

 

When I first met you I never would have imagined 

that I would have such strong feelings for you,
I never would have thought that I would have dreams 

about you or miss being by your side 

or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name.

When I first met you I never would have thought 

that I would love you.